Growing up

I was chatting with a friend yesterday. Previously, as in a year or two ago, we had discussed self esteem, and how I felt it didn’t apply to me. I didn’t feel I had self esteem. Low or high. It just wasn’t there.

As I’ve continued my transition, I’ve noticed I do have a self esteem and it’s low.

I said this to my friend. And we discussed how I seem to becoming more aware of myself and how I feel about myself.

My wife read the conversation and said it’s as though I’m growing up.

Is that was transitioning is? I’m growing up to be the girl I am? Or is this a product of my now keen awareness of when I’m feminine and masculine, this awareness extending into other areas…?

I’m not sure. But I must say this is quite the ride.